Words deep inside my heart ;

There's someone , took something for grunted.
We used to be very good friends , go around together , care for each other alot , etc.
Well , this make me agree that good friends come and go.
Although then a friend go , you wont feel so much as a lover , but time to time , day by day , the feeling would get stronger and stronger..

Many of us prefer Primary school than Secondary school . there's a reason for sure.
which i think it was because that when we're young , yes , we do fight over small things. but in the end , we still would become friends. no one will remember how are they treated no matter how badly it was.
And obviously , no one would think of how to revenge.

Now days , when our age get older , We'll think of ways to disturb whoever we dislike.
Play with their names , prank them , make fun of them , many more.
Sometimes , friends that make fun might think that it was a very fun joke or whatever..
but they'll never know that they've hurt you. Some words are mean , Some words are kind , alot alot ..

Sometimes they're very nice to you , asking you if u need help on something , what happen to you recently , I know , I do that too. this is world right? I mean , No matter where we are , we'll still experience this ..
What's with human and the world ? I really wanna be like a kid , no revenge , no nothing...
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Really do have many things to say about it . but i think i should stop. it's too looonnnngggggg..
I'd bored you..

Short post for today~


Hey guys , Interested to know how he looks like ?? 

Somehow , I think that he's really really really H-O-T !！

His name : Tobias Vanveen :)

Age : 16 

From : Netherlands !! 

The rest , for me to know , for you to find out !!~ 

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Such an "Wonderful Mathematics Paper"

It's gonna be a damn long post today!!~

Yea ，Maths paper 1 today , I am so damn afraid that I'd fail for that. *.*
Surprisingly , I'm quite confident with my work. Until I saw the last 3 question :|
Gosh!!~ I missed 8marks just like that. How could I ?!!
Alright , since it's over , shouldn't bring it up anymore longer. Just gonna pray hard !! ^^v

Right!! Now , although i am blogging , but I'm still worryin' about about Maths Paper 2 tomorrow~
Trying to stuff in every-single-formula , LOOk!! , This is the bloody first time I'm studyin' for maths?
Damn , Due to the sake of streaming. Sigh , Why do the government even come out with the thing called
E-X-A-M ?!
This is simply shitty !!~ Arghhh!!~

Next , I went dinner with my gans..
End up , playing true or dare. Ahhh , I chose dare for the very first time, and this is what i got.

My gan :-
*points at a guy* See that guy? Go to him and ask for his contacts.

Me:-
What ?! He's so hot and I've been staring ever since I stepped in !!

My gan:-
I know , that is the purpose of mine yea?

** The rest of my gans were giggling**
 Then i gave this face --> :O

So , since i chose to be dared , I'll do it :(
Out of my consideration , I just went up to him and his gang and tell him the purpose of wanting his number , Hahas , I actually do thought that he would turn me down and looks away ,
BUT !!
He was like ,
--: Come , Sit down , Do you have a cell phone?? (damn that accent! I love it!)
So , I sat down and hand my phone to him luhh~
WALAO !! Damn happy luhh!!!
He save his number , Skype and e-mail into my phone >.<

We chatted till we are so happy until my gans shouted at me :C
They damn bad right?!! Must be too jealous :X
So , When I'm gonna leave that guy and his gang ,
He says,
--: We stay near-by here. If you wanna look for someone to hang-out with , We'll be glad to.
(AHHH !!! IN ACCENT!!!)

**I nearly had an heart attack and faint there** 
Gosh , SEE!! This is how Gentle mans are~ Weee ,
Alright , Guess I'ma gonna fall asleep with a smile on my face ^.^
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Gotta go guys!! BuhhByeee!!~

Happy Mother's Day~~ ;

Yea , Mother's day right ？Me and my dad celebrate without my mom~
What an *toot* , Never mind also , We're still very very happy today~

Cekk , Woke up in the noon , had our lunch at 3+pm ,  :P
Cool right ?? Muhahah!!
Chicken rice lehh , machiam nothing special , but when the rice is serve , it's in a pyramid shape！
Forgot to take picture , next time then take ^^
The bill more nice lor ,

- Chicken , $5.00 , Qtn 1
- Rice , $0.60 , Qtn 1
- Towel , $0.30 , Qtn 1
- Barley , $2.60 , Qtn 1

Ohhmytian !!! Ex right ?? Grr , Towel also must pay money lehh , The towel is somemore just wet tissue ??
Grr , Okkay , then Nvm , Our next stop , World City (i think)
Damn many immigrants there!! Mostly i saw was Ang Moh !!
Walao , I fell in love with them mann!!

- Blond Hair
- Blue Eyes
- High Nose
- Fair skin
etc etc , Their outer cover is somehow perfect to me luhh!!~

I want them as my future hubby !!!
Ehh , just one of them enough ..

Ang Moh !!! I want one !!!
Erhm , why do i sound so despo ?? Ohmytian !!/

Err , suddenly thought of that idiotic maths paper on tue !!!

GONNA DIE !!!

FUCK ! WHY THE HELL IS MY BILL $70+ CHEEBYE ~!

I simply hate cramps !!

Argh , No matter it's leg cramps , or whatevershit cramps, hate it the most was mens' cramp!! wtfwtf!
It's Geography exam tmr and yet my tummy is having such terrible cramp!! ARGH !

I AM IN PAIN ! =(

I'm back from MIA !! =]

Well , Mid-year is around the conner and i'm still so relax here..
English file check on Monday and i am still not prepared =(

Somehow , i am sad ..
I teaches those Ang Mo Kio Pri , P5 student Maths .
They didn't appreciate the effort we've made.
10 person in the class with 10 sec 2 student. Each of us take one oh them. I cant handle mine. I think i have a over positive mindset that they are just a primary school kid. I thought they will be afraid of us. somehow , i am wrong. they were totally different. They are totally not afraid of us , they are rude to us , they are not happy with whatever we've done. then what is the point to continue teaching them? I am not heartless , but just had enough of them . there was a girl who make my heart totally dead of teaching. it's just 4th week this wednesday, but , ever since the 1st lesson , i have been telling myself that not to be or even get angry with them. so i promise you guys to make the lesson full of meaning. I understands every kids love to have quiz and get somethings when they got the quiz correct . so i prepared. But how am i treated ? how are my schoolmate treated?

I'm so sad . Gonna reflect on myself , make up a decision whether i am going next sad or not. sigh ....

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars ;

It's time for me to accept the fact and start studying .. In the past , i used to forget about fact and etc , now, story is different. I cant go on that way forever. I understands that i'm being hated. I'm prepared to get removed from your facebook list. And ya , do whatever you want to me. Since i'm seasoned to get hurt , It's all fine...

如果可以，我宁可从没认识过你 ;

是的朋友们，我一直深爱着他，但从不敢跟他告白。我喜欢他 9 个月，但从不知道喜欢他的原因。时时刻刻纳闷的问自己，他为人傻傻的，戴着黑色眼镜，正正经经，从不玩闹，那为什么我会喜欢他呢? 说真的，他，距离我理想的对象还差蛮多的，但却那么巧，我喜欢上了他。

虽然知道我不应该喜欢上别人，更不应该谈恋爱·，可是，这毕竟是爱情，谁控制得了啊？

我无时无刻提醒自己，不要太爱他，但是，我永远都会失败。从不知道原因，没有结果。爱着爱着，就习惯了。

开始觉得，虽然只是在他的背后默默爱着，但，也是幸福的。

I'm so freaking high after Investiture !! ;

Hello readers, These few days, I was thinking about stop blogging. But This will never happen. So, I'll still post but not often. Okay, Now, I'll tell you about the investiture today~

Well, After weeks of dreaming about the 10th Student Councillor Investiture, It finally arrived!! All of us was in full dressing, getting ourself high behind the stage.. Blazers are on, Heels are on, Ties, Hair etc etc. We are all prepared to put up our show.
Here comes the fun part. Me, Wenfang, Shamma & Jodi was singing all along while waiting for our turn to go up to the stage, We sing, Sang , Sung ~ Hahahaha ^^ I missed the times that we spend our time together and sing...
Finally, Our turn to go up the stage! Very nervous. At the same time, my feet is so painful!! Due to long hours of wearing heels, It starts to grow blisters.. Ouchh~ I bear with my pain, Continue our show!
*bla bla bla*~

For ur infomation, Our school do invite guests from other schools. So, Obviously after the investiture, there's food and beverage for our dear guests and parents of those stepping down Senior councillors and Ex-community..
I'm So high when i talk to those guests our school invited~ Hahaha, I'm sure they're thinking that i'm a mad~ I'm like, shouting here and there, Jumping all around, Hyper-ing all like nobody business !!
Sad news came across now, Seniors are all crying as they dont bear to step down!! Aww =(
I'll miss them~

Tiam ahh~ Back from Maris Stella @ 10.30 p.m
Tired die meeeee~ Oh my tian! Homework not even done lor... Die liao tmr,,,
Gg.com.sg ~ T.T

Whatever you give a woman, she will make it greater.... Give her sperm, she will give you a baby.. Give her a house, she will make you a home.. Give her groceries, she will make you a meal.. Give her a smile and she will give you her heart!!! She multiplies and enlarges what she is given, So if you give her "CRAP", be prepared to receive a ton of "SH!T"!!!

i wanna give up on u. But why cant i?
Well, it isnt that i didnt try at all alright , but i keep failing.
you know why?? T.T

与其想方设法应藏着自己内心情绪，倒不如将它事发出来。
谁没有于到困难的时候，谁没有内心空虚的时候，谁没有想自杀的念头，谁没有？
外在的伪装，敌不过内心的空虚。起初以为，世界末日降临。后来，看到在遥远非洲可怜的小孩，领悟到，其实他们的烦恼比我多，不只一生下来就要受饥饿之苦，还瘦得不成人形，我所有的，比他们没有得多。写到这个时刻，心里就成一团。红了眼眶。
唯有乐观积极面对，才是我，Clara Ong

piercing is just as normal ;
As i am too bored at home, I used a needle and poke through my own ear.
It's actually not painful at all. although i piers my own ear bone. i spend 40mins just to get my earbone piercing done. and now, one more on my ear loop.

Then then, I'm finally friends back with Benjamin!! that sotong ^^
yea. Hope this time could be friends with him for a longer time~

I just want to be the only girl that reflects in your eye ;
Yes, I always told myself that it isn't a big deal if you ignore me. I always do tell myself, i could be able to forget you.  I could. I surely could. But, I failed. It's really not that I force myself to remember you. Every time, when my phone vibrates, i hope that it was from you. But end up get myself a piece of disappointment. I don't want to mention you so much. it have been months that i have such feelings. If it's a crush, Feelings should have already faded. but why dont it fade? Title here, I want to be the only girl that reflects in your eye and i know, I'm always transparent. Even though i am just standing one step infront of you, You can still see through me. i hide my true colour from you, Acting like as if i am alright when i heard ur name. I dont tell anyone about this. I kept quiet. and then? what i gain? I'm stucked. Terribly stucked. Have you ever wonder how it feels?

Easy come easy go that just how you leave oh  take take take it all but you never give. Should have konw you was trouble from the first kiss had cha ask why open, why would they open. Gave you all i had you tost it in the trash you tost it in the trash you did. To give me all ur love is all i ever ask, cos, what cha dont understand is i catch a greanate for ya, throw my hand on a blade for ya. i'l jump infront of a train for ya, Ohh~ I will go through all this pain , take a bullet straight through my brain, yes i would sie for ya babeh~ but you won do the same.... ^.^ How random am i?~

when a text is ignored ;
My text is ignored.. Like what then hell -.- , bla bla bla,  I just simply dont like my text to be ignored. Like, Who likes this? I waited and waited .. End up got a piece of shit. Bloody hell.
Maybe i shouldnt have bothered. Why care ah clara?
That person IS FKIN NOT IMPT TO U ASS!
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Mr Wong called me?! ;
He suddenly called me and tell me that he's gonna stop Tong Ming from participating from the coming SYF. Then i was like, Okay~ Then? Cos i have totally no idea why he wanna tell me that uhh~ then he continued, So, Can you replace Tong Ming? I was like in a total shock i tell u. then, i dont dare to turn him off. So, i agreed. S_I_A_N!!! T.T , Go band everyday lehhh!! can die ahhh!! X.X mamaflyyyyy!!!!!!!

Tio Prank ahh ;
Grr~ I went for band today and find out that there's no practice for junior band!! If i didnt call Siyu, Me and Veronn wont have know lo! Haiyoo!! Siyu told me that Mr. Wong called her mum and tell her that there's no band today! but me and ron was left out~ Ohmytiann~
Then Jasper say , Tmr if got band then dont go, Hehehe, I'm like thinking the same thing as him as well luhh~
Ahahha, he can read my mind cann!!~ Aiya, dont go must give letter, still must explain this and that, might as well go luhhh~
Brrrrr~ Up till now, non of my homework is done! Without any surprise, I DONT FEEL LIKE DOING!
Aiiyaaa, Saturday go Eehao's place then chiong luhh~ Dont bother anymoreee~ ^.^

AHA!  I'm back from a long term of mia~!
Well, nothing much change, Shit still do happen here and there.
Went Malacca on the 11th. Bought so many shits back and turns out realised that i dont even need those...
Yeah, what ever, just keep it, i might use it one day~March holidays finally started..
But i've got nothing much to do... It's obvious that it's surely homeworks, but, Who would be bothered to do it when it's time to enjoy? hor? My dear Jasper read my post yesterday~ Hahaha, that cute little fellow! Actually, he cant be little, cos he's elder than me~ Ha, Who cares? Damn it, I'm so boreeeddd! gonna go out with Angeline on the lovely coming sunday~ Bugis!!! Aww~
Ya know, I saw a video about Maria Aragon with Lady Gaga yesterday night, She's so lovely! i love a voice, and so, i am addicted to the song Born This Way covered my Maria. Have that damn temptation to make a cover also, but not as confident as Maria~ Aww, how i wish my voice could be like hers~

Bye Trumpet ; Hi Saxophone.
Left the trumpet section and join saxophone
Meaning to say, I must start everything from zero. With the Sec 1 band luhh~
I dont mind actually, Cos, I'm still glad that i can be part of the band. Well , this is said by the conductor yesterday.

Well Yesterday, Archer-ing duty today after school for the Sec 4 parent meeting thingy. We're playing like hell after most of the parent settled in the hall. We = Eehao, Wenfang, WeiWen & Sanga. hahahaha!
Mdm how come to take pictures of us doing duty, then Eehao come across and take pictures!!!!
All i can say, That Eehao is really damn shuai in blaser and tie lor! No wonder Stephanie loves him sooo much >.<

After duty, I went for lunch with Shahirah , Veronn and Wenfang!!
I really really really do stupid things that is damn carzy in there...
Then I realise. the same old Clara who my friends know, has came back. Made a promise to myself. Old times Clara must come back and stand in position.
:)

I've a new parent nowdays. Why do i said that?
Just because of what they think ; they think that everything they've done, is good for you. Isit true? so, is hurting children a form of concern as well? you said that you're supporting at every point of time but what came out of your mouth just now? why dont adults keep their promises? Why would results matters to every-single-thing i do? Why must everything go with what you've ordered? i am your child, not your servant. Ya. We all know that the time of yours and the time of mine is different. The way of studying is also different! compare the worksheets of mine and yours. You dont even get what it's trying to say. I have to go look up on a dictionary myself in the end. There's nothing wrong with heading with my passion. I accept all your scoldings cause i admit that I've not done well for whatever reasons. Reflected on myself. but definitely band is out of the topic! you want me to treat you like a friend and tell you everything happened in school or whatever shit i am going through? dream on! dont blame me on lacking communications with you. You're stopping everything that like. Friends dont stop you from things you like, but they support you till the finishing lind. What about you? Oh ya? you've gone through what i am going through? No. Really not. you dont even get what i am thinking, how would you even know? Sometimes, you really look like an stranger to me. I am so empty. You waren't at home most of the time. What do i have with me? A com, A phone, And kinds of electronic gadgets, these are non-living thing. they wont talk to me! i dont blame you for working all day and leave me alone for godness sake. but atleast let me lead my passion! liking music isn't crime. just like you like to sing and take lots and tons of pictures. it's the same thing. you told me the good points about your hobby, i agree with it. cause that's ur method. everyone have different method of distress,  be fair can you? i agree with urs and u agree with mine. Why would you wanna stop me when i really do have passion in it? When i dont have any passion or what ever shit, you push me all you can just to achieve what you think that it's good. what's the point? The more i said, the more i feel sorry for myself. Have you really wonder what i am thinking when you show me a disappointed face? it's like as if my life is gonna end and sort of shit. i can listen to you. I surely can. but can you atleasst listen to me once? I'm really envy of others playing their instruments well, get a gold, relaxing and even enjoying of what they played. but why cant i? forget it.

bye,